5.08.2007

Treading dark water off the coast, we try to stay directly above an Apple logo on the sea floor.

5.07.2007

We see a small plane circle and then go down into the lake. I think I may be involved. I am the first to arrive at the pilot hatch but am hesitant to go in. When a searcher arrives I stand watch and keep his oxygen tube unkinked. But there is nothing but polyester stuff sacks and cinches underwater. Maybe the pilot escaped before the plane went down, or maybe it never had one. Later, we are moving into a new fraternity house on top of the hill. It is dark and humid when I get a chance to see my room. Back in the house where I was born, there is an old time song circle outside. I start to sing and play mandolin but have to go back inside to clean up a can of orange juice concentrate that gooped through three drawers when I went on vacation. The kitchen understands.

5.05.2007

On the side of a mountain a nuclear reactor is built from tin and caulk. Predictably it misfires, killing all crew and taking out half of the mountainside. The mother nations are on high alert; they have no choice but to assume the blast was an act of war. This is the smell of progress in a benighted land, I say to the ambassador, who is an orphan.

5.04.2007

Two older cousins gone missing.
At a shoreline equilibrium, a friend is pushed back by the current to the mouth of the river. We tell her to cross next time in ignorance.

5.03.2007

The house on Valley Lane has a steel plate in the ceiling that has been eaten away by rust.

5.01.2007

My boss escapes to a castle with his lady companion. They scour the basement for a bottle of vodka. It all lasts two hours.
The same damn predicament.

4.30.2007

At her 70th birthday party, my mentor, a nutritionist who went back to Africa to work with the poor, tells me that she is retiring to write a book on how African children adapt when they leave the country and are confronted with a world of private property. Her nephew, who has been trying to start a string of business ventures in Senegal—starting with a chicken coop, growing now to car import-export, in order to leverage some real estate speculation—makes the obvious point that children in Africa do learn that some objects are off-limits. But her adopted son, who was once an orphan in Africa and is now an investment banker and venture capitalist, disagrees. He says that his own two-year-old son has no idea what private property is, because he doesn't have to share. The baby takes it all in.
My driver takes me to the address I give her. But my family is eating on 34th Street.

4.29.2007

I am killed in the outback for free. I wake up snowing.

4.27.2007

Pressure on my eyes.

4.26.2007

At the lunchroom the fish sandwich is forty dollars a pound as I suspect. I whisper "usurious" to the cashier and storm off into the day hungry. There is no other meal. In an antique dormitory I find my friends but I have to leave them without a key into another dorm room with two sheetlike fountains: one going up and the other going down. They switch directions. At the bar I meet my my date but we are expected to join a large group in a small private dining room. I have to switch with someone to sit next to her at the corner. Look, I'm told, at the wall. There is a hundred-year-old photo of Jim Carrey on the streets of Little Italy with two long Malian prostheses: one to hold the tambourine, and the other to smack it.

4.24.2007

The shiver in the trees when the bird leaves.

4.23.2007

Grandma lives in an old folks home and her final days are wracked by the conviction that her recipe for chicken soup with matzah balls violates another grandma's copyright. I venture out into the wetlands where my new brown shoes are spattered with mud. On my way I am joined by my old friend Sam and his little brother George who once cracked my jaw with a baseball bat. I try to tell them about another little brother who was arrested but they don't care to understand. I am heading to the house of my other grandparents to see the slide show once again. When we arrive it is already over so I sleep in the barn. There I discover a doomsday device, which is like a Roomba vacuum cleaner with helicopter blades. It hovers and cuts. Hovers and cuts. And as I climb aboard I think, the world doesn't deserve this.

4.22.2007

A rock garden and artificial lake at the edge of the abyss. From inside the plate glass my father and I can watch a jazz trio perform outside in the rain, spaced like ornamental plants. And the camera flies overhead.

4.18.2007

The supervisor of my therapist is my therapist.

4.11.2007

Grandpa is vibrating at such a rate that we have to turn him off.

4.10.2007

4.08.2007

In the office at a Bloomsbury country estate. We're publishing an essay on the Supreme Court and an essay on a war movie. I print one essay on the label of an apple juice bottle filled with urine. But I discover that part of it has been cut off.